-- the tv show that I've begun watching. The main character, JD, (played by Zach Braff) keeps reminding me of BeautyEyes. I'm totally addicted to the show these days, and I'm now quite enamored with this guy, if only because he so reminds me of BeautyEyes. It's not necessarily that they look alike, (though in a way, they really do -- just imagine brown skin and grey eyes, though just as striking) but there's some hint of personality similarity, maybe it's the nerdiness? which I absolutely adore, by the way. This might very well be the first time that I've actually had a celebrity crush... the first time I've ever had any genuine curiosity about getting to know an actor, on a personal level. I'm finding it rather strange, really. I've felt that way about authors, but I think the nature of acting and celebritizing forces automatic walls between us and them, versus a pulling force of mental attraction that comes along with writers.
Anyway, I should probably stop watching the show because it's just pulling me down deeper into my depraved cyclone of obsession. I'm really trying to stop thinking about BeautyEyes because I know our situation is absolutely impossible, and I most likely will never get another weekend with him ever. After I sent him a drunken email, I realized how close to the edge I am with this guy, and the teetering is doing no good whatsoever.
On another front completely: I started a new job today and I'm surrounded for the first time by men who are happily involved with their wives/fiancees. No divorced sense of alienation, no sex-hungry single boys, just men who are (at least outwardly) satisfied with their women. THAT is strange in my profession. How ironic then, that one of these men I find absolutely stunning. Once again, the eyes! This guy brings back memories for me of my girlhood fantasies of who I would want to marry. Dark brown hair, chiseled features, BRIGHT blue eyes, and he's a brit to boot! Witty, and sarcastic as hell with a bite on the end of every statement. Dare I say, hot? I don't work with him directly, so I can't really stare at him for long periods of time given we don't hold very long conversations. But when I can steal the time when he's not looking, I'm amazed at how fucking handsome he is. Nothing like a workplace crush to make the hours go by pleasantly...
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3 comments:
Zach Braff is adorable, isn't he? And workplace crushes can be fun. Especially if they lead nowhere. All the flirty fun without the heartache.
you might want to check out www.zachbraff.com
I too am a huge scrubs fan! Greatest comedy on TV right now.
oh trust me, Thinker, I've been ALL OVER zach's blog already. Twice. Maybe three times, I mean ALL OVER. The crush is steadily growing. It's wierd. I think about my friends who are about Zach's age, who are from New Jersey, and I wonder if perhaps? Did they attend the same high school? Did they have a cousin who went to temple with him? Is there any way I can contact all of my Juyzy friends and find out?!?! I think if I ever met this guy, I'd probably just make a fool out of myself because I'd have googley eyes and drool all over my face. It's kind of funny actually. This mini crush is actually helping me "get over" my situation with BeautyEyes somewhat. I now have an object of desire (sorry Zach, I hate to objectify, but really, come on, do you mind it so much?) upon whom I can redirect my unrequited energies and obsessive attention that I can actually tell my husband about. How about that?!! Grand, isn't it?
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